Well the frogs are back

Just as the weather changes so does my aches and pains. Great I now have to put up with all that goes along with the weather change .

I have spent the last few days feeling light headed. I walk into work feeling okay and then after about an hour of standing I start to feel dizzy. Yeah that's me dizzy blonde. Getting more and more all the time. I think the frogs are starting to show their ugly faces again. You know the ones. They show up and start taunting me with look what we can do to her now.

The other day I was at work and no matter what I did I seemed to run into a cupboard door or drop something. How did that get there? I just seemed so ditzy and could not comprehend what I should be doing. I agree ditzy blonde.

There is a new member of the group of frogs. This one is wrapped around my teeth. I try to speak and all that comes out is garbled none words. Got to waggle my lips and make horse sounds to get the right words out. What the heck is with that? I try to explain something to someone and my mind knows what to say but my mouth just can't get it to spit out. I think I will call him Gobaldy. Yeah that sounds good.

When I get on the intercom at work to make an announcement is really a chore for me. I have to keep to the basics, but there is that awed time when I have to say something and it just won't come out at all to what I really wanted to say. My gosh what am I getting myself into here. Well at least my words come through with my fingers here. So only whoever is reading this will know what I am talking about. Well at least that is what I think anyways.

You know the straight line you are suppose to walk. You know to get from point a to point b. well I kinda take detours to get there. I am heading to the kitchen to get something from the cupboard. Let's see first of all it takes forever to get there. That straight line doesn't seem to straight to me. Then when I get to the kitchen that one cupboard that has been sleeping for so long just jumps right out and bangs into my leg or hip. It is like a frog has it out for me now. Since it has been all summer since I have seem them. He has an elastic that will pull that cupboard out to see me. I have so many bruises on my legs from hitting that cupboard. It is like it just wants to jump out and get me every time. Then by the time I get to the kitchen I dang well forget what the heck I was going into the kitchen for. Ditzy here I come. So back on the long journey to the living room to sit down again just to oh yeah remember what the heck I went into the kitchen for.

I then finally get that all figured out and want to start on getting something out of the cupboard. Well there is another thing. Nothing seemed to be we're it should be. I reach for something and it just doesn't seem to be we're I am reaching for. Or I get my fingers on it and it moves a few inches over and then slips out of my hand, usually falling to the floor. It is a wonder I haven't broken anything yet. Well there will be a day and then I will have to clean up after these frogs.

All right how did that get here? I was just trying to type something here and all these other letters just popped out. I guess I must be hitting the letters but it looks like I am swearing here. Well just got rid of that mess. Were is that frog that just did that to me. Oh there he is scurrying under the couch. I am going to have to get the exterminator in to get rid of these pest.

The only thing is that they are the only company I have here once in while. They sure do keep me on my toes here. Then I fall over because my toes ditzy balance is all off and weighed down with stupid frogs.

I guess that is about it for the frogs today. They have made their point saying here I am again welcome back to la la land. Happy happy I don't think I am going to be but let's see we're it will lead in the next few months. Winter is upon me now and either the fibro or the arthritis is going to be hell this year. I guess it will never come what may and I am the one living it. Whopper!!!!

Well back to the blog again

It has been awhile here since I was on this blog. I know I am only on it when I want to complain about my aches and pains.

I guess today is no different. Well for now at least I think it is no different.

I just took a vacation. You know the one were you drive and drive and sit on your butt all day. Then get out for a while and check out the hot spots. Well mine was spent just a little bit different.

I spent it on the back of a motor bike. With all the problems I am having I did this. For almost two weeks. Legs stationary in one position riding behind my hubby while he managed the roads of Washington, Idaho, Wyoming, Montana, and South and North Dakota.

The weather was great. Didn't get any rain on our trip, but the weather was dang hot. Sun beating down on the back of your neck and hoping you don't get sunburnt.

Well I can say I had a good time and saw allot of places, but my legs and back are telling me a different story here. I was doing actually pretty good before we headed out. I thought that maybe I had found something that worked for me. Well it was working for a bit anyways, but as the days rolled on I started to get sorer and sorer with every time I had to get back on the bike.

More then enough times I had to get off and stretch a bit. They became more and more frequent as the days went on. I was starting to wiggle so much on the back that he had to pull off and ask what I was doing. Put a bit of a damper on the trip.

Well I did have a good time but my
legs are still telling me about sitting for so long. I started back to work again here yesterday. It wasn't easy to be standing all day in one place and serving customers. I can start getting pretty cranky when I hurt allot. Not good when you are suppose to smile all day and be happy. Geeez!!!

If you want to hear about my trip just check out my other blog of old Harley biker broad and other vacations. There are a few blogs on my trip on there.

Today another doc appointment. I have been poked and probed so many time. The thing is they keep saying I am doing good. Well maybe you should explain that to my body because it is telling me a different story here. I would really love to start thinking about the disability thing here as I have enough trouble with being at work all day. But they keep saying I am not ready for that yet. Well when do you think I will be ready when I am dead? Mind you there are some days when I feel pretty good by they are far and in between. With the arthritis and the sjogrens and the fibro I am always in some sort of pain. I am trying to keep it upbeat but just some days would be better to just crawl into bed and cover myself up and never come out. I know that doesn't accomplish anything and life has to go on. Just turn off the world and let me get off here and start over. If only for a little while.

Well
In the next few weeks I have to get back to the dentist and finish off what they started. A cleaning and one more cap to work on. At least it isn't much anymore. Hurray for that. Also check out some
Work he did at the front to get my teeth looking good. I think he made on e of my front teeth too long and they don't just feel right when I snap them together when I eat. So he is going to have to shave it down a little. It looks right now like I have beaver teeth on the front. At least my smile does look allot better. Took allot of money to fix it up. And will probably take allot more to keep it that way.

Today I am seeing an eye specialist. To check about my dry eyes and
Make sure that nothing is going wrong there. Dilating my eyes is no thrill either. You can't drive for a while. Makes for a very boring day afterwards.

Then Wednesday is off and hopefully will be able to do a woodworking and get on with some projects I have on the go. Then it is back to full fledged
work fun fun fun. I just hope I can stand this work thing for another couple of years and then maybe retiring and enjoying life to what I can do. Which is sounding more and more like I won't be doing too much of anything because the pain will just get to be too much for me. Well I am hoping I can survive this all and do what I can when I want. I don't want to end up being we're I can't doa dang thing.

Well that is enough whining for now I know you really don't want to listen to it anyways.

another dentist trip over with

Well hopefully this is just about done.  I am getting sick of sleeping all day and all the next day because of being drugged up to work on my teeth.  I have slept now for two days straight.  The drugs are finally wearing off and I am getting back to normal sleeping habits.

Well the front is done and the right side this time.  Last time it was the left side and front bottom..  Allot of drilling and such.  At least there was no root canal done on this side just fillings.  My two front teeth now look a heck of allot better but now I lisp a little.  See I even do it when I am typing.  So now I can say I have a whole new mouth.  Well that is just a bit of a saying.  My mouth is still the same old quiet don't say a word mouth.  Or the sometimes put her foot in it big time.  Or is that just me in general. I think it is just me in general.

Other then the dentist thing going on.  My alcer seems to be doing allot better.  I can now get my food down again with out having to chase it down with water.  That is a good thing.  I have also been feeling allot less pain here lately as well.. So the fibro is on the mend for now.  I know it will never completely go away but for now I am enjoying not having so much pain.  I am up and around and playing in the garage at the work bench.  Got a project done the other day that I have been working on little by little since last winter. So today i drew up a new project to work on.  Now if I can keep up the energy to kep=ep working on it.  I hate stating something and then it gets put on the back burner because I am not feeling well enough to do it. Well it could be the new herbal stuff I am taking.  Just have to wait and see next week whether it is a bad thing to be taking from the doc. She doesn't know I have changed a few things.  But hey if it is making me feel better I will try it and hope for the best.

 I still don't sleep to well.  There is allot of tossing and turning through the night.  Just to get dang comfortable in order to get some sleep.  But I do eventually get what I need.

The brain frogs have taken a trip as well.  I don't seem to be a confussed and out of it.  So that is a great thing as well.

I know I am talking about how I might be doing better.  I better not jinx it too badly or I might be in for a let down here and all the pain and brain fog and grumpyness will come back to haunt me again.  But I hope to keep this up as long as I can.  It just feels so dang good right now.  I want to go out and dance.  But that just may put me back again.  So no dancing for now.  Maybe just a little jig.

well back to the dentist again

Another big bucks visit to the dentist coming up here tomorrow.

Oh! such fun this will be.  I have to get the caps put on two of my teeth and then some more fillings done.  Doesn't this just sound like fun.. well at least I will be a sleep for it. I hate the visits to the dentist.  All that drilling sound going on and that crying and cringing. (OH that is just me sorry)  Yeah I hate the dentist.  I know they are suppose to make things better but when they drill your tounge when you are a kid it doesn't make you want to go back anytime soon.  Soo sleeping is a good thig through this.  It is just when you wake up half way through and they are still doing things in your mouth that you start to worry about it.  Yeah i woke up last time and the first thing I notice is my mouth is being held open and they are still drilling in there.  Stop the boat now I want to get offf!!  She told me that at one point on my last visit my blood pressure went up.  well when you wake up and start to notice things I think your blood pressure would go up.  Go figure!!

Well I will see what will become of tomorrow.  At least I will get a good nights sleep out of it.

You know I would have still had pretty good teeth until I got Sjogrens.  My mouth went dry and my mouth has never been the same.  My mouth gets yeast build up in it.  It needs water all the time.  I can't seem to talk half the time because it feels like there is marbles in my mouth.  And to top it all off i start getting cavities galour.  Wonderful.

I have tried a new regime here to help me out a little.  You know it is working for now.  I have more energy and I feel allot better. Pain killers are to a minimum. My aches and pains have decided to subside a little and life just seems to be doing allot better.  I still have to talk it over with my doc in a couple of weeks before I start to talk about it.  But for now I think part of my poblem has been my thyroid.  So what I am taking now seems to be helping out.  If it is my thyroid.  I seem to be lossing a little weight and I am doing better all around.  So I think it is time to get that checked out.  Now I am just hoping that what I am taking is not going to be dangerous to me in the long run.  I don't want to end up having cancer or something because I do the wrong thing.  well will just have to wait and see what she says.  I am reading in one sudy that it is good to take this and in another study that it may be harmful.  But for now feeling better in a good thing for me.  It means I can keep moving and doing the things I love.

So as you can see I am a little more happier now.  I am out working in my shop.   Work seems to be a little better for me and half the pain has gone south. my mood is allot better. Lovin it.  Hope it keeps up and the doc doesn't give me shit for trying to self medicate on herbal remedies.


 Well will see in two week before I head on a holiday.  Suppose to be getting on the back of a bike a touring around the States.  well will see how sore I feel after afew days of that.  You will hear about that  in my other blog when I get back.  Well wish me luck on that will you.

Well maybe there is a something at the end of the tunnel

I am trying a new regreem.  It consists of taking magneseum and iodine.  I started the magneseum a couple o weeks ago and started on an iodine supplement here yesterday.  So far so good.  I went down a few pounds and I am not feeling as sore and tired as I usually do. 

There was a few days in there but that was because I was working a couple of eight hour shifts and my hubby decided that I should do a little more exercise.  He took me on a walk that is longer then I usually walk.  By the time night rolled around and I was working, boy was I getting sore and stiff.  well it seems that after four days I am finally getting back to normal.  Well for what normal is for me.

Anyways I think that these two pills are working for me.  There are days but they are far and inbetween right now.  I am almost human again.  Mind you they may not be for everyone but for me they seem to be working just fine.  I haven't taken any pain killers in over a month now.  Well that is a lie.  I had a headache one day and had to take something before the migrain started.  I think this is pretty good for me.  For over the past year and half that was all I was taking and I was getting down in the dumps and the pain just kept getting worse and I just didn't feel like doing anything.

I have also cut down on some of the junk I have been ingesting as well.  Chocolate, which seemed to be a mainstay for me lately is down allot and also I use to drink a few bottles of the diet drink as well.  This is what was probaly taking away my magneseum.  The aspertaim.  But now I regulate what I am putting into my body.  yeah I still have some once in while but have cut back allot.  That could have been the cause of the migraine.  The lack of aspertaim in my system.  or the lack of pain killers I was taking and I was going into withdrawel.  Well as I say.  I do feel better. but there are days when I would still just love to crawl into bed and stay there.

So I'll give this another month before I head back to see the doc again.  tell her what I have been doing and then maybe she will give me shit or maybe she will not.  Don't know but what works for me is not doing me anymore harm then what I do when i take all those pain pills.

That just gave me an alcer.  Go figure.  well I seem to have that going pretty good too right now.  I can swallow again.  Food goes down without a tub of water.

so all around besides the few bad days I get once in while when I over do it.  I am doing great.  Hurray give myself a pat on the back.  Oh no that might hurt and flair up the fibramialgia.  Well I will take my chances.

Next month will tell.  Have another appointment with dentist to take care of the rest of my teeth and then the big bike ride for two weeks.  See how that goes.  Hubby is worried that we will get somewere and then I will have to take a plane home because I can't ride the bike anymore.  well just have to see how it goes.  I know this problem is along for the ride but I will give it my best shot and hope for the best.

Finally Sleepyness is gone

I 've been asleep or whoosy the past two days.  Not from being tired but from having some dental work done.

Oh gee that was a fun time.  I get in there at 8:30 in the morning and didn't get out of that chair until 5:30.

When I got there they put me into the chair.  Then covered me with a blanket.  Tucked me in nice and cosey,  Then gave me three pilles in a cub and two more mixed in with some orange juice. YUK!!! The next thing they did was layed me back so I was almost up side down.  Here is when first problem started.  My back just went into spasems.  I could feel my lower back and hips start to hurt and then between my shoulder blades really started joining in.  I have to move and wiggle and hopefully get into a comfortable position.  Well to now availe on that.  Then they ask are you getting sleepy yet.  NO I hurt too dang much.  So they went and got me a towel to see if that would ease the pain.  Not much better.  You know I could sit up for a minute or two until drugs take effect.  No to much risk of you falling over.  So I had to lay in that position.  Lovely.  So finnaly they thought of getting me massage pillow and warming it up.  Helped a little.  Took the tention off my neck and made my back feel a little better.

After a few minutes just don't remember anything until I started to awake around 3:30.  That is when I noticed that they were still drilling and such.  Oh heavens I hate that sound.  It just went on and on  and on.  I am fully awake now.  Oh please let me go back to sleep.  I think I may have dosed a little more but kept waking up to that dang awful drilling.  Finnally that stopped and they tried putting in the tempoary caps.  They got one in easily and the other one in easily but the third one Just wouldn't go were they wanted it to.  No snapping on without pushing into my gums.  Dang that hurt.  Just a few more minutes and we will get this right.  Yeah right this is my mouth you are playing with here.  So a little more carving off of the cap and try again.  Well it is in there now I still don't think it is right.  Hopefully when the new caps come in they will fit a little better.  So the work they did today was on my left side.  Top and bottom and bottom front.  You mean I have to do this again to do the other side?  OH come on!!!  Once is enough.

Finally it is 5:30 and I want to sit up.  No you can't do that.  You may be too unstable.  The problem is unstable or not I want to get my back were it is not hurting.  So whether they like it or not I say I am sitting up.  So two ladies stood there and made sure I didn't fall over.  Up okay but am very light headed.  Boy does that feel funny.  World is spinning but my back feels better.

My ride is finally here to pick me up.  Now they want me to pay.  Excuss me!  I can't even concintrate on standing up and walking and you want me to do an interact.  I said I will come tomorrow and pay when i am coherant.  Well at least they took that as an okay to leave.  Didn't even get to walk out of there.  A nice ride in a wheel chair.  Out and over the ramp and down  to the car.  Next thing.  Getting out of chair to get in car.  Head spinning the whole time.  Lovely ride home.  The world is going places and I am not.

Well I finally get home.  Aw no more ride in a wheel chair.  had to walk in the house. That was the longest walk of my life right there. So now having not eaten anything since the night before I had to try and eat something.  To get something in my stomach.  A little soup is all I could do.  Then I went and layed on the couch.  Oh world stop spinning.  I have had enough.  It is eight o clock and I am going to bed.

You know that is the best night sleep I have had in a long time.  Slept until 7 oclock the next day.  Still a little whoosey,  Now the problem is I have to face a day at work.  And a morning shift to boot.  Boy was that a long day.  Glad it wasn't busy were I was.  But kept myself busy so I wouldn't think about anymore sleep. Came home and did the best thing I thought possible.  I went back to bed again.  Woke up a couple of hours before any of the family got home and wanted supper.

Well that was the trying experince with the dentist.  I really don't like this desease as it is rotting my teeth.  I had pretty good teeth up until now.  Only a couple of cavities in 20 years.  Now I have to get a mouth full done and have them drilled down to were they have caps on them.  Should just pull them all out and then I don't have to do this again.  Yeah but then I have to deal with dentures or gumming everything.  Well that would be a way to loose some weight.  I can't eat I should be able to loose weight.  Or starve to death.

So now until next time.  Another appointment at the end of July.  At least I think that is when it will be.  Oh goody.  More sleep for me.  But they still have to look after the rest of my teeth.  I think I could livewith the cavities thank you.  Yeah I know rotten teeth do not look very good.  So I guess I have to go back.  To get new caps on and fill the rest of the holes that are forming on the other side.  Great.

well an update for now I know boring

Okay I had this all done in my head then now that I am sitting down at the computer it is all gone.  Another frog has come to visit.  So now what do I have to say.

Well I am feeling a little better as of right now.  The frogs have gone on a vacation but I know they will soon be back.  You know they sneak up on you and you start doing the strangest things you thought possible.  You run into things or maybe you get awfully forgetful or just plane act stupid for no reason at all.  well I do that all the time anyways.  I have explained in a previous blogg if you are looking for something else to read.

My body is telling me it is time to gain weight again... But why.  I liked the weight I was at.  would have like to loose some more but it seem not to be in the cards.  This past two months have brought ten pounds back to my waistline.  What is with that.  Now I have to figure out what has changed and start back fresh again.  I exercise every day.  I eat right which I haven't changed any of except maybe cutting out on diet pop.  I haven't had as much as what I was drinking.  This is probably one of the reasons I am feeling a little better. The aspertaim is going out of my system.  Well I am hoping that is why i am feeling better.  There are days were I would just love to stay in bed with the covers over my head but that isn't in the cards either.  Too much to do around this place and it mostly all has to be done by me..  Yep wine, wine , wine thats me  Get the cheese ready to go with it because this is going to be one big wine feast.

Work the other day.  That was just a day from hell.  I had to work an eight hour shift and to top it all off the debit machines go down.. Hum not just in our store but all the stores on the system.  Most of the mall was out.  And it had to happen on a Saturday.  One day when allot of people want to do their shopping.  Customers were not too happy.  Me working in customer service got an earfull from allot of people.  this being a grocery store as well.  made it a doubly hard day for things.  Customers decided to leave their groceries at ends of counters big buggies full.  Stuff they couldn't afford to buy because they only had ten dollars in their wallets.  So the place was turning into a mess. To top it all off  the customers cleaned out the bank machine at the front of the store as well.   No money there to be had anymore either.

So someone had to go around collect up all of these graceries and put them away.  Well I was one of them.  I filled buggy after buggy and put them away.  That was allot of exercise for me.  running around, bending over picking up graceries off the floor and under tills and putting them in a buggy.  Taking them to the front and then putting them in bins at the front in their proper place to be put away.  I haven't moved that much in a while.  Yeah I felt it afterwards.  My arms and back were just burning.  Sleep that nigfht wasn't much better.  and the next day at work I could feel every place that a joint and muscle hurt.  Some times I just couldn't reaaly want to move.

well I am almost back to normal today.    I can still feel the stiffness in my back.  And my hip when I want to sleep is just the pitts.  Hopefully this will subside here in a couple of days.  Not a fun few days I will say.

I will let you in on a little known fact that I just didn't take to heart.  You better look after your teeth while you are able to.  Once you get this syndrom there is no turning back.  I had great teeth.  I haven't had a cavity since I was a kid and you know never brushing my teeth you get cavities.  Then I had two wisdoms pulled and that was it for me.  I brushed regularly and took care to see that that never happened again..  Well I spent 20 years with no problems after that.  Now all of a sudden I am back to the dentist and well here comes three root cannals and a bunch of fillings to be done.  This is going to cost me a fortune.  My teeth are going rotten as I speak.  here is another what is up with that.!!!  well at least I get to sleep throuhg the process.  It is all because of having no saliva in my mouth anymore.  So there is no way to fight off the decay and bacteria.  Lovely!!!  I got a new tooth paste that has more umpff in it.  Hopefully it will help out a bit.  My sleep tiome is next week so will let you know how that goes after I am done with it.  Can you say sore mouth all around.  I am not happy with this at all.

as i said before am feelong a little better.  I am not on any pain pills anymore.  I read in a book that if you take magnesium it will help with the joints and muscle.  And since I have oseto arthritis and Fribamialgia on top of that. I decided to give it a try.  You know for now it seems to be working.  I haven't had any pain pills in a couple of weeks.  My stamia is a little better  and the frogs have gone away.  Well they do come back on occasion, but only for short visits.  I do feel sore once in while but it is only a few twinges here and there..  My trouble right now is trying to get a good night sleep.  I wake up more times then not and getting to stay in bed first thing in the morning would be lovely as well.  But not going to happen anytime soon.  I just can't sleep anymore.  So up I get.  Tired and sleepy and get on with my day.  At least I can say i have gotten rid of some of the cemicals in my body and am working with natural stuff instead.

I have made an accomplishnet today. We have a hill that is fairly steep just over two raods from were I live.  Well I walked up it today without stopping.  When I was well I use to walk up it every day for exercise.  well I was not able to do it anymore without having to stop part way up and couple of times.  Today I did it all in one stride.  No stopping.  so proud of myself.  So now I will have to keep it up and do it a couple times a week.  With all the aches and pains and stiffness I couldn't do that anymore.  Now I can do it.  for hopw long I don't know but I know I can do it when i am feeling at a peak.  Good going Brenda  keep up the good work.  There is also a set of steps down the way a bit.  I guess it is time to tackle them again. I can do them but have to stop half way up.  So now that I am feeliing up to it I should try the whole flight again.  There is 70 steps to this flight to get up to other level of road.  So now tomorrow morning I will try them with out stopping.  Just hope I am not overdoing it while I am up to it.  Don't want to be flat on my back again suffering in pain. Well I wil see what tomorrow brings.

Anyway.  I better stop here and get on with the rest of my day.  Work lovely work is calling.